Monday, February 27, 2006

this is the 3rd post for today.,.,wahah.,.,make sure you read the previous 2 also.,,.haaz.,.

We always believed that it's better late than never...
But have we ever given a thought that because of believing in that,
it might be too late?

Here is a story of a guy who thought that being late was better than never...

Ryan have been liking Erika since they were young.
Who could not? Erika is sweet, beautiful and smart.
With them being friends for a long time,
Ryan began to fall in love with her.
But Ryan is a shy boy.
He kept things for himself because he's afraid of rejection.
He then always told himself that one day, he would tell Erika.
But he thought that he could always do it later.
Besides,it was always better late than never...Oh! How wrong he was...
One day, Erika came to visit Ryan after work.
She was smiling and whistling a happy tune."Hey Ryan!"
"Hey there..." he said.
"Guess what?" she said her smile getting bigger.
"What?"
"I'm getting married!"
Ryan felt his world has crushed. He didn't even hear what she said next. He smiled a fake smile and after she left he cried.
He was so damn stupid to believe that he could still have a chance after believing the saying.
That kept him from confessing.
Soon Erika got married and they went off to their honeymoon.
Ryan became very miserable for many days.
But the worst news of his life was yet to come.
A week after Erika's honeymoon, Ryan never heard from her.
He was very worried cause she promised to tell him about what happened.
He called her mom but she said Erika haven't returned yet.
It was a month before he received a call from her mom telling him to go to their house.
He was so happy that he bought flowers.
When he arrived to her house, he saw many cars.
He thought that it was a welcome back party or something.
When he entered the house, his face was full of shock.
In the middle of the living room was a coffin.
Beside it was a picture of Erika.
He immediately approached her mother and asked what happened.
"Erika have been found near the cottage dead. She was killed by her husband because she wouldn't sleep with him."
"Why wouldn't she sleep with him?"
"It was because a boy was still in her mind. He kept her from that..."
her mom cried more...
"Who's the boy?"
"It was you Ryan. It has always been you...She wanted to get married to make you jealous or stop her. But you didn't."
Ryan left her house and drove miles. He have been so stupid.
He believed on the saying 'better late than never'...
But now it didn't matter.
Because of being late...too late...he can never tell her how much he loved her...
To all those people out there who believes in this saying, especially when it comes to love, you better act now.
You may act late but what if it becomes too late?
It would just be the same as never...

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this is a list which i came out of my own. it's a list of signs which you will have when you love someone. it really happens to me.,.,=] enjoy reading.

20. Seeing him even if for a minute will make you smile for the whole day...
19. You wish you could stay in his arms forever...
18. You miss him the moment you leave his side...
17. You start writing his name on whatever surface you can find...
16. You save all his sms in your handphone instead of deleting them...
15. You'll do anything just to see him...
14. You accept him for who he is...
13. You read his sms over and over again...
12. You walk really slow when you're with him...
11. You feel shy whenever you're with him... (or comfortable if that's your thing)
10. When you think about him, your heart beats faster and faster...
9. You smile when you hear his voice...
8. When you look at him, you can't see the other people around you... all you see is him...
7. You start listening to slow songs, while thinking of him...
6. He become all you think about...
5. You get high just from his scent...
4. You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about him...
3. You would do anything for him...
2. While reading this, there was only him on your mind the whole time...
1. You can't lose him, because he is your life...

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wah!!!.,.,die liao.,.,so gonna fail my social studies common test.,.,i just know im gonna fail it. the english is easy so i dont have to worry about that. tomorrow is geography and chinese compo.,.,man.,.,i really gotta study for geography or im dead for humanities.

going to china, shandong this sunday morning. can't wait to go but also at the same time.,.,I DONT WANNA GO!!.,,=[ so gonna miss my friends but im so so so so so going to miss him the most these 10 days in china.
=[[[ wonder what can i get for him and my friends in china.,., haaz.,.,dont play play k.,.,they have good stuff in china also de. lolz.,.,

by the way.,.,i've just changed the tagboard so please go tag after reading this okie? or i'll send virus to your computer so you can never use it again.,.,WAHAHA!!.,.,lolz.,.,just kidding..,.,dont worry.,.,=p

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Saturday, February 25, 2006

hahaz.,.,.wow.,.,a rainbow after the rain. we went out the next day after what happened on thursday. i was so happy yesterday. =]

i went to meet him under his block right after school. then we went to civic centre so that i can change into my clothes. which is much more comfy then the school uniform. haaz.,.,=p then we went to chua chu kang lot 1 if i did not remember wrongly. (im getting very sotong these days.,.,so please do forgive me if i remember anything wrongly)
then at lot 1.,.we went to get our tickets for the movie but cant.,.because ya know.,.,the movie is nc16 and im not 16 yet. we try to fool the auntie at the counter but failed.,.because no i.c.,,can't buy.,,the auntie power sia.,.,haaz. so disappointed that we cant watch the movie. we decide to try other places but change our mind. we went to other places to spend our day instead.

it's like we're on the train.,.,to and fro.,.from woodlands to chua chu kang.,.,then to sembawang. haaz.,.then from sembawang.,.,we walk all the way to yishun.,.lolz. there.,.,we went to a park on a small hill.,.,and to the playground there. we sat on the swing.,.,like kids. haaz.,.,i was really happy when swinging to and fro on the swing. always the same happy feeling whenever im on a swing. but this time.,.,it's with him. so you can say that im the happiest girl you can find on a swing. haaz.,.,so while im still on the swing.,.he bend down and with a straw in his hand.,.wrote something on the sand which really make me love him even more.

we went down the hill to get something to drink.,.then walk to north point. there.,.,we have our dinner at the food court and a stroll in the shopping centre. we went to the arcade to have some fun too.,.,it's my best time in an arcade. we went back to woodlands by bus.,.,even on the bus.,.we have some fun. heehz.,.,at woodlands.,.,we went to the park where we have our 1st valentine's date. there for some time and we went home.,.,haaz.,.=P my happiest day!!!!! and hope there are many more happy days in the future.

at home.,.,i went to bed the next minute i finish my shower. really worn myself out for the day.,.but there are still energy left in me to smile while i think about him before i fell asleep. =]

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Thursday, February 23, 2006

haiz.,.,today is the worst day for me this year. im actually looking forward to this day as im suppose to catch a movie with him. but everything went so badly that i cried while walking home just now. haiz.,,

after school.,.,i went to cwp with my classmates.,.,doing revision for the common test. then one of my friend was not feeling well so i send her home. and from admiralty.,.,i took the train back to marsiling as im meeting him at the basketball court. i was walking extremly fast as i do not want to him to wait too long for me. but as i was reaching soon.,.,i got a message from him saying that it's late and he gotta go. i got mixed feelings when i saw the message.

i was angry: cos of what happened, sad: cos i cant meet him again and i miss him alot, tired: i was walking so fast that my legs are aching, hungry: i ate only potato chunks for lunch and hammers are hammering my head. i just feel like crying.,.cos was really angry with myself. at the same time.,,.im walking on the streets,.,.in the dark.,.,with my uniform and alone.

then i got no choice but to walk all the way to marsiling CC to take the 856 bus home. i walked for 30 mins in total.,.,haiiz.,

thinking about this now.,.,my tears are on my cheeks already.,.,*sobx~

haiz.,.,really miss him alot. ='[

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

haiz.,.,so sad today. can't see him.,.miss him so much that my bag weigh heavier then usual and the way home seem longer.,.really hope we will be able to watch movie and take neoprints tomorrow.

just borrowed a dark hunter novel from stef today.,.titled 'night embrace' just love the dark hunter novels.,.,so well written.

well.,.,i have nothing to say now.,.,except that i miss him alot.,.haiz.,., =[

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Monday, February 20, 2006

hihi.,.,haaz. damn busy these 3 days that i've got no time to blog. worse.,.we're so busy that i cant meet my dear dear. well,.,but at least im with him awhile at the carnival. =] n something happened. i was walking across the parade square when he was walking towards my direction. im busy smsing so i did not notice that he was walking towards me. then suddenly.,.,when i kinda bump into him.,.he hugged me. right in the centre of the parade square! lolz.,.my friends saw that.,.and they keep talking about it after that. i was like asking them "Did Anyone Saw That?!" lolz.,.because there was lots of people at that time. but i really need that hug.,.missed him so much.

for the carnival.,.the class did quite well even though most of us are slacking half of the time. haaz.,.3/2 ROX!

dear dear.,.promise me that you will not ask those questions again okie? almost made me cry in front of my family when i saw that message. trust me.,.our love will last even if the time we have together is getting shorter. you're always on my mind.,.whatever im doing. i cant lose you.,.because you are my life. Sarang Heyo.,.,I Love You.,.,

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

haaz.,.what a tiring day. busy preparing for the school carnival. while i was sorting out the things for sale.,.a group of my friends was fooling around with the stuff.,.,haaz.,.,they are so funny.

so sad.,.can't go off early to be with my dear dear. miss him so much.,.,so wanna hug him!!! lolz.,.

i love you dear dear!!!.,.,waha.,.,crazy about you. =p

(^_^*)

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

yesterday's valentine's.,.,my 1st and happiest one. =] have a great day with him. just sitting down on the grass looking at the sky.,.chatting. the best part is when im on his shoulders.,.it seems like all my worries and stress are gone and what's left is only love and happiness. how i wish time will freeze.,.so i can be on his shoulders forever.

DEAR DEAR.,.if you're reading this, i just wanna tell you how much i love you. hope we can stay this way for eternity.,.to be your other half who you can depend on for the rest of your life.



'sarang heyo' means "i love you"
means i will never leave you
every minute, every second, every voice of yours
only your smile will make me whole again

'sarang heyo' only said to you
i will love you, and forever more
i promise, baby you will see
every single of me will only belong to you

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Monday, February 13, 2006

haaz.,.valentine's tomorrow. can't wait to spend the day with him. heehz,.,hope it'll be fun just like he said. =p

actually.,.every sms he send me, i'll keep it in a folder in my hp. but the previous one.,.with 2 hundred plus sms. i kinda deleted it accidentally.,.i was so angry with myself.,.haaz. so whenever i miss him.,.i will just read all the sms he send. i will do it more especially when im in china. when i can't sms him and can't see him for 10 days!! hope i can get a picture taken together with him.,.haaz.

ZZZZzzzz.,.,so tired these days. i think my rings are getting darker as days passed. looking more like a zombie. lolz,.,as im typing now,.,my eyes are half closed. haaz.,.too tired already. i gotta go take a shower now. hope it'll help to keep me up while i do my homework. haaz.,.buaiz!

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

hihi,.,haaz. good news. i've passed level 1. got another 3 more levels to go. i got him now.,.but only got one quater of his heart. i will win his heart. i just know i will. or my name is not kai (triumphant/victorious) ting (graceful). haaz.,.=]

on fri.,.that's where things started to get sweet. after badminton and basketball,.,he walked home with me. while walking, i almost slide and fall as the floor is wet. then, it's like.,.suddenly he grab my hand.,.haaz. was kinda shocked. haaz.,.then after that.,.when we reach my block..... haaz.,.=P i think i'll stop here.

on tuesday.,.will be going out with him. wonder what he will get for me. haaz.,.

JJ Lin Jun Jie's new album cao cao will be out on 17 February!!!! WAHHA!!! i want!!!,.,im so gonna rush to the CD store right after school to buy the CD. wahaha!,.,.

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

=] so happy! lolz.,.was with him these few day. we're not together yet but i'm so happy being with him. i really have to thank him.

he helped me with my maths today.it's like,.,my maths is my worst subject. you'll need to spend for about 15mins per question explaining to me before i get it. if it's just anyone who's teaching me, he or she will give up on me already. but him,.,he's very patient with me, explaining every question to me until i understand it. he even said that he won't give up on me no matter what. that really makes me want to cry.

just now,.,i just did something great. i asked him out on valentine's. guess what,.,he said yes! i was so happy.,.my first valentine's date in my life. hope it will go well.,.it must go well!

for now,.,just wait and see how it goes on tuesday. =] i will not let go of this chance with him. i will not give up.

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Monday, February 06, 2006

suppose to give HIM a slice of my home-made chocolate cheese cake today but it kinda melted before it got to HIM. so sad.,.but things were getting better. i went to find HIM after school in the pastor's office. HE and HIS other friends whom i know were playing someone games. i put down my bag and joined them,.,sitting beside HIM. heez.,.HE lent me HIS handphone so that i won't get bored watching them playing. heez,.,oh my.,.things are just so good today that i'm on cloud nine!!!! i can't get words outta me now. haaz.,.too happy.

i'll continue other days if i can. haaz.,.today rocks!!!!!!

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

got HIS message in the morning and i was looking forward to the evening the whole day. we meet up at marsiling mrt station and was supposed to take the bus to bugis. instead,.,i remembered the wrong bus number,.,960, 961,.,and we ended up going to bukit panjang shopping centre. in the bus.,.HE let me put my head on HIS shoulder as i was very tired. i did and it felt good. will never forget about it. at BP,.,we saw the bag we wanted but only one left. no choice,.,we went to lot 1. still,.,no luck. finally at junction 8,.,we saw this very cute converse brown backpack. we tried it on,.,considered carefully before we bought it. it's fun,.,haaz. HE looked so cute with the backpack. we decide to use the bag on monday. wondering how HE'll look with the bag. hehez.,.must be very cute. =P

on our way home on the mrt.,.i suddenly felt like crying. well,.,i was kinda holding back my tears. when HE said something.,.i just forced out a smile. finally the train reached woodlands where HE will get off. either it's my teary eyes or it's not.,.i think i saw HIS eyes alil red n teary. maybe it's just my eyes. i said a soft goodbye to HIM and He too a soft goodbye to me. my eyes were really teary as i see HIM go. i was crying on my way home.

i can't sleep the whole night. i smsed and asked HIM silly questions. at 4.48a.m,.,i sent HIM a sms telling HIM that i like HIM. finally,.,i got HIS reply just now. HE said that HE knew all about it at the start. i don't know how i felt at the moment. CONFUSED.

i'll never forget about 3 february 2006. being with HIM the whole evening.

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

hihi,.,i'm back at last. haaz,.,lots of things happened when i did not blog.

yesterday during recess,.,i went down to the bookshop with yurong. was busy talking to her in the bookshop and i turned back. guess who i saw,.,HIM!!! i quickly turned back and continued to act as if i didn't not see him, continued talking to yurong and stayed close to her. when we're out ,.,i just went crazy like an insane hyena. i was laughing with tears in my eyes. don't ask me why cause I don't know either. we went to our usual hang out and don't know what happened,i hurt my leg. still laughing the whole time even though it's damn painful. swollen up already! then i was limping around the whole day. haaz.,.

today,.,it's just another normal day, until lunch time. went down to the canteen with sislia to get our lunch. then,.,guess what. yes,.,correct. i saw HIM again. i went crazy laughing with tears in my eyes again. just can't help it.

i know what to get for him on V'day already. hehz.,.hope he will like it. can't wait for saturday to come. will be going out with HIM!

that's all for today!.,.haaz,.,happy reading! take care! (~^_^)

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