Tuesday, May 30, 2006

haaz.,.been sleeping late this 2 nights.,.an official night owl you can call me.,.,haaz.,.then wake up only in the afternoon around 3plus.,.

think i got myself a lobang le.,heez.,.thanks to a good friend of mine.,.=P
we chatted about life.,.the past.,.,catching up with each other.,.it's the first time we chatted for so long on the net.,.haaz.,.will never regret knowing him.,.will always be my good friend!!

if i were to choose between friends and a not so good boyfriend.,.i choose the friends.,.they are always there for me,.,we can talk about almost anything.,.we hang out.,.so happy.,.

a not so good boyfriend.,.he was sweet at first but now a bland.,.care about me but now a uncaring.,.a "sticker" and now a "non-stick".,.a lovable and now a unlovable.,.sheesh.,.guys sure can change fast,.,

aiyah.,.,i dont give a damn about guys like this le larh.,.dont know what they are thinking about.,.if they are serious about things.,.ewwww.,.

gotta go.,.,chow!!

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

hmm.,.3months and 14 days already.,.,things are getting quieter.,.,.the distance is getting further.,.,wonder what is he thinking now.,.i've decided to test him now by not contacting him at all till he contact me.,.lets see how long it will go on till he did remember me and contact me.,.

haiz.,.,i tired everything i could to win his whole heart.,.but i think i did not succeed in doing it till now.,.i keep thinking night after night.,.what can i do in order to get him to really give me his whole heart instead of jus part of it.,.

the way he treat me.,.is ok but i don't feel special at all.,.even my close guy friends treat me better then he does.,.at least they know how to treat a lady to make her feel special.,.don't think he know that..,.

i do like him.,.but.,.how long can i go on.,.my type of guy.,.,he should know how to treat a lady.,.but him.,.haiz.,.he treat me like his friend.,.not girlfriend.,.he spends most of his time with his friends.,,.what can i say.,.

haiz.,.can say.,,.i'm disappointed.,.i'll concentrate on my friends now till he realise what's happening right now.,.i'm not going to waste my time thinking about it when i can be with my friends enjoying my life.,.,

go on or not.,.,.i'll let him decide.,.,

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Monday, May 22, 2006

ARGH!!!!!! why must it be this way.,.,stupid me.,.,should have known and go to school le. how i know.,.stay at home sleep then dream of that guy!! and in the dream,.,he's like.,.errrr.,.,damn close to me.,,.hugging me.,.,eww~!! i never dreamt of that before.,.it totally freak me out. he freaking wander around then wander into my dreams.,.then ewww~.
why must be my dreams larh boy.,.other people de can marh. you're welcome into my cloud castle but please.,.don't do that hugging. i'm just not used to it.,.as you are not that close to me before.

it's been so long now.,.,since the last time i dream of him.,.i hope it's not going to come true or something. well.,.who knows.,.what if it's true? a vision of the future? oh my.,.freaking werid.

still freaking out.,.,..,.,.,.,.,.,..,,,.,.,,,.,.,.,.

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

ZZZzzzz.,.,...10:48PM now. nothing to do.,.,bored.,.wondering if i should go school tomorrow. still worrying about my maths result. hope the extra lesson darx gave me will help. haiz.,..

cant wait till my new deathnote blogskin is ready.,.,heez. and guess what.,.DEATH NOTE BOOK 11 IS GONNA BE OUT ON 23/05/06!!
*SCREAMS* cant wait till i get that book in my hands.,.,wahah.,..

is going crazy over the new song "Dani California" by the red hot chili peppers. the song is so totally addictive.,.my new blogskin will have that song.,.hehez.,.so tune in.,.

aiyah.,.cant sleep now leh..,.lolz.,.,okie.,.tomorrow dont go school!! haaz.,.,*shsss* still have 60 peeps online in my list.,.,i go chat le bah.,.,buaiz.,.

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

woah.,.,got my results back today.,.best sub is art.,.72/100..,.but my worst sub.,.,haiz.,.,e most important maths.,.32/100.,.
im not improving.,.still stuck at the same height.,.just like the chinese bamboo pastor john mentioned this morning.
he also said that by working hard and not giving up.,,it will grow because after absorbing all the hard work it show the world that it is capable in it's own way.
i hope that i will be that chinese bamboo.,.,dont give up and show the world that i am capable of doing it.,.i will pass my maths.,.
but with the "seed" alone it cant grow.,.
what it needs is help from the "nutrients" in order for it to grow well.,.

haiz.,.,hope the "seed" can get enough "nutrients" in time before it's too late.,.


hmm.,.,now that i know my results.,.i will continue to work hard as there is still room for improvement.,..cos i noe.,.someone out there will be dissapointed if i did not do well for my subjects again.,.

Dear.,.love you worz.,.=) i will do my best to do well in my maths de.,.u too.,.,study hard worz.,.jiayou jiayou jiayou!!! wo men yi qi jiayou!!!

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Woah.,.,haaz.,.,it's been a month since i last post. during this one month.,.,have been studying arz.,.,will be getting the results tmr le.,.,scared worz.,.

that day went to bugis with Ky.,.,haaz.,.we both got ourselves a cropped jacket.,.,heez.,.we have so much fun together as it's been quite long since the last time we went out. 7yrs of friendship.,.and still going strong.,.,=D
have been playing mythwar everyday recently.,.heez.,.kinda fun.

now after exams le.,.hope he'll have time to hang out with me bah.,.really miss him lotz.,.will be really happy to go catch X-MEN III with him.,.
even though we dont really get to see each other alot during exam period.,.i get to see him almost everyday in my dreams.,., =) makes me wanna sleep more.,.haaz.,.,okie bah.,.thats all.,.now exams over le.,.will get my frens to do a new skin for me or i change it.,.heez..i will update often also.,.i will be back.,.,cya!

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